Same goes for now. However, one of them (perhaps the most famous of them!), came to mind today:
"The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he refreshes my soul." (Psalm 23:1-3)
It is so true. I lack nothing. I'm being cared for in many ways and dang it! I'm being forced to lie down in green pastures!
I can't DO anything right now! I can't clean my house, I can't lift items for grocery shopping, I can't lift anything heavier than a gallon of milk. I can read, knit (which is hard to do with a cervical collar) and cross stitch. I can walk. I can lift one plate at a time. I should refrain from bending a lot or extending (reaching) a lot.
All of this is to protect the bones in my neck. One of them is very fragile (the C4), with the C5-C7 being significantly weakened states as well. I will be starting radiation very soon, as well as starting some bone strengthening drugs to help combat what's happening. Radiation will also be used to address the lesions throughout my spine and pelvis.
I have one "spot" on one of my ribs. Other than that, the bone metastases are limited to the spine and pelvis. This is good news. There is no indications of disease in any organs, or in my lymphatic system.
But . . . back to the resting thing. I will most likely have to wear the cervical collar up to six months while the bones regrow. We are trying to avoid spinal surgery at this time as there is a good chance that the surgery would fail and have to be repeated, as well as the fact that surgery would delay treatment for the entire spine (would only address the neck).
So . . . I'm resting. Literally, when I'm home, I do as little as possible. Today, I napped for two hours. I cooked dinner (very slowly) and that's it.
It's hard. However, I'm taking the time to rest and to listen again for God's voice. I do pray for others as well.
I'm so flawed. I don't want to appear as if I always have it together, because I most certainly do not! I cry and I sleep, both of which are good. I laugh and I eat, two other things that are good, too! I pray and I listen. I'm not sure what I'm going hear, but I pray that I am giving myself time to listen well.
As always, the community support is amazing! Our many thanks to all of you, both near and far.